trauma – Bipolar Wonderland

Genres

I’m struggling to find a proper genre for my novel. It covers so many topics. I wish “trauma” was a genre, that’s the ongoing theme in the book. It’s a work of ficition inspired by actual events. It’s not Chick Lit or Romance. It’s not Sci-Fi or Fantasy. It’s not a period piece. It’s fictionContinue reading “Genres”

The Breaking of Rainbow (Part 5): Cloudy Day

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I Have Readers

My story on Wattpad has 39 views. Some of these are from people close to me that I share it with, but many of the views are from random strangers that found my story somehow. This is blowing my mind! 39 maybe doesn’t seem like much, but to me it’s incredible! So far I haveContinue reading “I Have Readers”

The Breaking of Rainbow (Part 4): Shadows

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Fuck

I’m having nervous breakdown about writing this next part of my book. Like, I’m breaking down crying. My mom is patiently listening to me freak out. There’s just so much trauma during this part. Manipulation, controlling behaviors, emotional abuse, alienation from family and friends, and the worst: the emotional abuse of my son. I can’tContinue reading “Fuck”

Rainbow Writes (Part 2)

my.w.tt/iUfZL7oFZ3 This is part two of the story. There will be several parts.

I Can’t Seem To Do It

I can’t fucking do it. I cannot seem to move forward with my story. I’ve made it to page 202. Now I’m just stalling. I’ve never looked back and reflected on this part. When it happened and it was finally over, I just moved forward without looking back. I didn’t sit around and wallow. IContinue reading “I Can’t Seem To Do It”

Overwhelmed

I’m out of cigarettes. This is going to make for a very trying day. I need them when I write. If I get to a place in my story that feels overwhelming I go smoke to take a break. I smoked my last cigarette after I woke up while I drank my first cup ofContinue reading “Overwhelmed”

Immersed

My husband has never seen me fall in love with a project before. He’s surprised by how involved I am with my project. I talk about my book incessantly; the trauma vignettes that I’m writing about, creating a book cover, the possibilities that could come with getting it out in front of an audience. I’mContinue reading “Immersed”