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Stifle

I struggle to maintain a consistent, positive attitude. That’s no surprise. When I feel like I’m backed into a corner with an ultimatum, I will make the choice I feel in my heart. This hasn’t happened to me very often, but when it does I choose what I truly desire. I can fake it untilContinue reading “Stifle”

Lost

I’ve been in a deep and severe depression for 6 months. Nothing seems to improve it. I have fleeting moments of happiness and it’s always followed by a quick sinking back into the depression. My meds aren’t improving my brain nor is therapy or groups. I put a lot of thought into ECT treatments likeContinue reading “Lost”

The Breaking of Rainbow (Part 4): Shadows

my.w.tt/lXC5N2Ax43 Part 4: Shadows

Killer

I watched the entire series of Netflix’s I Am A Killer. It was fascinating. I found myself psycho analyzing each inmate and the survivors. There was a murderous situation in my family history invovling my mom’s mom. In 1976 when my mom was 14, her mom was eating lunch at a nearby park. A youngContinue reading “Killer”

Stuck

My life has changed exceptionally over the last 3 years. I went from an emotionally abusive marriage to a psychotic woman to marrying a man I didn’t know could exist. I’ve moved 4 times and changed jobs 5 times. My son went from living primarily with me to living primarily with his dad in Colorado.Continue reading “Stuck”

It’s Whatever

Depression gives the illusion that you’re being lazy. I suppose to an outsider this looks to be the case. The reality is that it isn’t true. Depression is debilitating, so yeah, regular daily activities aren’t being accomplished. There’s no energy to do shit. Existing is sucking the energy dry. It certainly can vary day toContinue reading “It’s Whatever”