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The Breaking of Rainbow (Part 4): Shadows

my.w.tt/lXC5N2Ax43 Part 4: Shadows

Is That All There Is

Is that all there is? This is the mantra of a jaded individual. This is how we look at life. I’m a self-described jaded realist practicing loving kindness whenever I can. It took a lot of years and a lot of experience to get this way. It’s not so bad, really. It doesn’t mean I’mContinue reading “Is That All There Is”

Animals

There are 5 cats that live where I live. They’re all fantastic in their own right. 2 used to be mine. They’ve lived here with my parents for 3 years and have attached themselves to my parents. They’re happy, content, and well taken care of. They are deeply loved. I love cats and I enjoyContinue reading “Animals”

The Breaking of Rainbow (Part 3)

my.w.tt/JTYOoG5e13 Part 3: Spiral

Killer

I watched the entire series of Netflix’s I Am A Killer. It was fascinating. I found myself psycho analyzing each inmate and the survivors. There was a murderous situation in my family history invovling my mom’s mom. In 1976 when my mom was 14, her mom was eating lunch at a nearby park. A youngContinue reading “Killer”

Fuck

I’m having nervous breakdown about writing this next part of my book. Like, I’m breaking down crying. My mom is patiently listening to me freak out. There’s just so much trauma during this part. Manipulation, controlling behaviors, emotional abuse, alienation from family and friends, and the worst: the emotional abuse of my son. I can’tContinue reading “Fuck”

Rainbow Writes (Part 2)

my.w.tt/iUfZL7oFZ3 This is part two of the story. There will be several parts.

Rainbow Writes (Part 1)

my.w.tt/ZrGfsWlFZ3 This is part one.

I Can’t Seem To Do It

I can’t fucking do it. I cannot seem to move forward with my story. I’ve made it to page 202. Now I’m just stalling. I’ve never looked back and reflected on this part. When it happened and it was finally over, I just moved forward without looking back. I didn’t sit around and wallow. IContinue reading “I Can’t Seem To Do It”

Overwhelmed

I’m out of cigarettes. This is going to make for a very trying day. I need them when I write. If I get to a place in my story that feels overwhelming I go smoke to take a break. I smoked my last cigarette after I woke up while I drank my first cup ofContinue reading “Overwhelmed”