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Dad

My mom has been with my stepdad for 15 years now. He’s a very sweet and kind man. He’s always been mostly quiet around me. He’s taken great care of my mom and she has taken great care of him. I admire them and it makes me happy to be around them. Not too longContinue reading “Dad”

Too Early

I’ve been waking up earlier and earlier these days. My husband expressed his concern with this this morning and told me he wants to talk to my psychiatrist about it. He thinks it’s throwing my schedule off. The thing is, I don’t have a schedule. I just do my thing each day. The only thingContinue reading “Too Early”

Writing Fiction

For the record, writing a pyschological thriller is WAY more difficult than writing a memoir. It requires 100% more creativity. I am a fairly creative person, but I find myself stopping frequently to decide where the story is going and what makes certain characters tick. It could easily become a short story, but I wantContinue reading “Writing Fiction”

Lost

I’ve been in a deep and severe depression for 6 months. Nothing seems to improve it. I have fleeting moments of happiness and it’s always followed by a quick sinking back into the depression. My meds aren’t improving my brain nor is therapy or groups. I put a lot of thought into ECT treatments likeContinue reading “Lost”

Eureka

Eureka! I have figured out my next novel! I got the title, plot, subplot, story twist, and ending all figured out. Thank goddess because I was stressing the fuck out. I’m actually really excited to write all of this out. I think it’s got great potential. I haven’t read a psychological thriller with this plotContinue reading “Eureka”

Brainstorming

Oh, my fuck. I’m trying to work on another novel and I cannot get started until I figure out a very clever plot twist that will turn the whole story on it’s head. Perhaps I’m overthinking it… I’ve been reading up on how to create one, but it still seems impossible. I will not letContinue reading “Brainstorming”

Paying A Publisher

I’ve been thinking about how some writers seriously object to paying a publisher for their services. It dawned on me that celebrities pay everyone for their services. They have to pay their manager, their publicist, their bodyguards, their music video producers and directors, and everyone else on their “team”. These people don’t work for free,Continue reading “Paying A Publisher”

Confusion

If I support you, the respectful thing would be to support me in return. That makes sense, right? There’s a glaring absence from the support I’m receiving in regards to my novel being published. I don’t understand why this person is absent. I support them in everything they do, and here I am with nothingContinue reading “Confusion”

Published

My novel was accepted for publication! I’m so excited! I’m proof that you can do anything you set your mind to. I’m 37 and just now am getting my first novel published. I never thought I’d be doing this. It’s amazing. No, I didn’t get some big, fancy contract that includes a big advance. I’mContinue reading “Published”

ECT

I just got back my seeing my psychiatrist. My depression isn’t getting better and it started in August because of a situation I didn’t ask to be in. Because my depression has been going on for 6 months now, she asked me to consider ECT treatments. I told her no way, but she asked meContinue reading “ECT”