I’ve been gone a long time. My life has continued to be a bit of a clusterfuck. Here’s what’s happened. My son’s visit so far has been beautiful. He swims almost everyday in the huge pool his grandparents got him. Sometimes they swim with him. My depression is so severe that I’ve only gotten inContinue reading “I’m Trying. I’m Fighting.”
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Friendship Break Ups
Friendship break ups are the fucking worst. Especially when they come with no warning. When you’re just ghosted without knowing wtf happened. It kills me to see the bff I was dropped for doing all of the activities and adventurous things that used to be what I was doing. I’m not being talked to anymore,Continue reading “Friendship Break Ups”
Girls’ Ranch
120 views yesterday. What the fuck was in the air, I wonder? I’ve been having a lot of engagement on my social media lately and I have no idea why. It’s exciting, but oddly intimidating. I’ll let my notifications grow because I don’t know if I can keep up with them. I love this “problem”.Continue reading “Girls’ Ranch”
UAs, Twitter, & Sleep
I actually slept in until 5 this morning! It was great. I’ve spent my time since then doing a detox for this ridiculous UA I have to do this morning before I start orientation. I have consumed COPIOUS amounts of water, omg. If I’d have known about this UA before my interview, I wouldn’t haveContinue reading “UAs, Twitter, & Sleep”
Sleep & Social Media
Oh, melatonin. You helped a little, but I’m gonna need more of you. I got an extra hour of sleep, which is good. I need more, though. Tonight I’m going to take a higher dose. I cannot remember the last time I slept past 5. It’s been months. It doesn’t matter how late I stayContinue reading “Sleep & Social Media”
Glammed Up
I do a lot to look glam. It’s a reflection of how I feel inside and about myself. I’ve been told I don’t need any of it because I am naturally pretty. Let me break down all that I do to achieve my glam look. First I put in my contacts. Then I do lashesContinue reading “Glammed Up”
Material Loss
I lost everything, except some clothes and a few other things, when I had to move back to Minnesota from Colorado a few years back. My ex-wife stopped paying rent without telling me and we were kicked out of our house. I was forced to put all of my belongings into storage that was eventuallyContinue reading “Material Loss”
Sleep & Lockdowns
Fucking hell, I hate being up so early. 😒 Not being able to use cannabis for the next week is totally screwing with my sleep. I’m frustrated. It’s almost 3am. I’ve been up since 2. I also slept on and off for 5 hours yesterday. I knew that would fuck me up, but I couldn’tContinue reading “Sleep & Lockdowns”
Depression Aftershocks
My depression has caused a lot of strife. It broke me down and made it so I couldn’t cope with life because I couldn’t cope with myself or the catalyst for my depression. Now that I’m coming out of my dark fog I’m trying to be more useful. I have a lot of work toContinue reading “Depression Aftershocks”
My New Job
I start my new job today. I’m going in to fill out paperwork for a background study and to set up a place and time to get finger printed. I’ve had to do all of this for a couple different jobs. It’s interesting to get finger printed. I don’t understand why I have to keepContinue reading “My New Job”
Bipolar Wonderland 