Lost

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I get lost in thoughts

of what I thought it would be

my life is messy.

It’s always messy and I

get tired of it

but I always try.

I move through the dark

and I

seem to always miss the mark.

The last year was trying

there was betrayal, loss,

and deep thoughts of dying.

Constantly falling short

I disappoint myself

when I keep failing more.

I rise and I fall

everyone around me

fears that phone call.

Trying to let go

of everything I was afraid

to deeply know.

I just want to succeed

in finally living

a life that makes me happy.

Published by Cynthia

I am 37 and a first time author. My book is currently in the process of being published. It will be released in Fall 2020. I am an avid advocate for mental health. I’m always sharing my struggles and breaking the stigma. I am married to my husband Beau and I have an extraordinary son named Jasper, who is 10 years old. I miss living in Denver and being by the magickal mountains. I also love the ocean and living in a big city. Currently I live in western rural Minnesota where I am originally from. Life is wild.

One thought on “Lost”

  1. A life that makes you happy
    is not a goal to be achieved
    not reaching this kind of goal
    makes you feel aggrieved
    and everlasting unrelieved
    instead of trying to reach it
    implement your life’s system
    to be happy and also fulfilled
    a difference you won’t believe.

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